in silence, you will learn of thyself.
01/12/25.
damn.
not releasing the clutter of thoughts somewhere indulges one into psychosis.
but we good now with an extreme workout.
some energy gets excreted with such movement.
problems that one has can go away when you address them with honesty.
some progress made to the service academies, but a roadblock presented itself.
i cannot control it; it’s in the hands of congress/senate, and God.
they shall decide if i proceed or cling to one final line of rope to a fable.
after looking at all my options, yea, i narrowed it down.
i realized i love high autonomy and high variety. pay is necessary, but i can live with little, just make sure i live and yea, we ball.
my top two options are either to enlist in space force or become an electrician.
both allow variety and autonomy to different degrees, and i also realized i do not want to spend vigorous amounts of money on credentials or school; there’s formal education, and then there’s skill-education.
ngl atp, i wanna build a skill. and on something i enjoy a lot.
i like building stuff, i like being outside, i like using my hands.
with space force, i can give up some autonomy to learn skills and learn the game.
with electrician, high autonomy, high variety, and pay will push me onwards.
also, i realize i need to surround myself with immigrants more.
the hunger they have to triumph against their circumstances is contagious.
from their academics, finances, personal endeavors… it’s crazy how they know a good amount of something.
just today, i spoke with someone about what we would do with a check of $3600/mo.
about 40% makes sense to just throw in etf fund or s&p 500.
because nobody wanna git rich slowly.
but patience + discipline = dub.
so might as well.
i mean, if nobody gets outta this game alive, yea it don’t matter how we play the game.
granted, i do wanna splurge some money, but not on material stuff.
i wanna spend money on experiences.
like traveling, or maybe flying on a jet, or in a race car, something cool.
that’s worth paying imo.
but yea, my mind is now more focused on money.
it’s my motivation rn.
nothing wrong with it.
i think the season of doing ambitious things for the sake of it is about to sunset.
the sunrise of a money-hungry me is near.
just be coherent with the decisions and we good.
aight, cool stuff.
back to it.
dm.