take your stance.
16/11/25.
i am pinned to a wall of my own ambitions.
should i proceed one step closer to the service academies, i must resolve a problem i inflicted onto myself.
failure to overcome this, and my progress shall be delayed.
success is not stolen; it’s surrendered, one lazy decision at a time.
this is my responsibility since i committed to create a sports tournament.
i ignored the academic side as i pushed forward on the project, my physical fitness, and my medical recovery.
i also committed actions i am not proud of to others.
i must sit with them and throttle on until this adventure is over.
then i shall apologize; no point to give my condolences when i meant it.
it did not feel right to do.
i’ll whip out my chin to take the punches later.
i shall proceed with my armor smeared with broken promises.
i shunned the laptop away from my sight; i was better off without it.
it shall stay that way with the exception of exam days; i’ll need it then.
i must eliminate the need to use vulgar language to express my logic.
it’s not necessary; it shows i lack articulation and it is not healthy.
make it an active habit to prevent the use of cuss words.
i’ll mention to all my homeboyz that if i swear in front of them, i owe them $0.50.
that should do it.
thank God; He provided a spiritual slap on the wrist for my abhorrent habit i developed where i fill my bottle up with soda from restaurants.
sometimes i enter the place just to do that; my sibling paid the price for my action.
even though it was indirect, i do remember my decision to fill up my bottle without permission or from a paid cup.
that kinda did it for me; maybe next time will be the last time.
it feels distasteful that i let myself accept such behavior; the guardians of my mind did not defend the gates to my habits well enough.
so this week ought to be an uphill battle fo’ sho’.
one test separates me from a chance to maintain some dignity this latter half of 2025.
i am relieved i noticed such self-destruction before its winds sweep the interior of what remains pure of me.
if i do not implement such action and guardrails immediately, i am destined to sabotage my success to advance closer to the fable i’ve created in my mind.
take your stance, me.
it’s sudden death now.
dm.