the eye of the storm.
18/11/25.
the title says it all.
these are the preeminent words to express my experiences within the past 48 hours.
i am grateful i got the homeboyz + homegirl to anchor me as chaos tore me from the inside-out.
gracefully, i remain intact, and the cancerous interior of my fraudulent self has been revealed to undergo ectomy.
studied for this exam, tho i alr know what is the next decision i’ll take.
i’ll drop the class either way and focus on the sat score. 50 points on the sat can boost my candidate score up by 75 points; 100 points bumps me up by 150 points. that could be the differentiator between an appointment or not.
i focused intensely on this because this will be the third time i ever take an sat. and knowing this is my last shot, i’ll do what’s required.
to drop the class will prevent any drops in the gpa to protect it; however, the assignment is that i must pass that class next semester with an a—no exceptions.
this, alongside with doubling down on the academics for next semester means i am committed, no matter what, until a decision is made.
get two extra jobs; i can do that now, no other commitments but my last attempt.
life shall be simple, focused, and balanced: work, academics, and improve fitness + physiology to prepare for the decision.
and yea, the homeboy was right. i thought back to what the ppl who i lived with back in cambridge + lavc said pre-june 2024…all of them always told me: “bro, be my lawyer, wtf!? no cap, that’s genius.” “why are u doin’ math, u should be a lawyer.”
these are ppl who run startups, mit grads, and blokes whom i’ve never met in my life.
i figured out why tho, that’s for another day; tmrw maybe.
ngl, i like this habit of writing a small reflection every day. takes 10 minutes max.
makes me realize what got done, where i need to correct, any wins, asks, and random funny stuff.
like that guy who walked into our class mid-lecture and did a tiktok…it was an uncanny moment since i didn’t know that was a tiktok and that he was lowk being racist to my professor… til a new trend.
it’s a small downside that i’m the last one to know trends since i don’t have tiktok, ig, twitter, fb… just this page. ion care; i’m at peace.
documenting is fun; these journal entries will be such an eye-opener when april/may ‘26 rolls around… if God lets it have it my way, i’ll be proud of the growth i made.
what does not get documented or tracked will not change.
dm.